2005?

The clock struck 12 and everyone went "yay". And that's how my new year's eve went. Except we weren't near a clock...and most of us can't tell time anyway...and the ones who could were already dead so we only knew it was the new year and went "yay" because the big ball came down...except it was more of a horrific scream than a "yay" because most of us thought it was a comet heading towards earth to kill us all. There was a little bit of cursing out of fear too. So if you clean up the cursing and interpret the blood boiling screaming as "yay" then when the clock struck 12, everyone went "yay". I've decided for my crap new year's eve resolution that I'm not going let myself fade in the background and join the ranks of the slackers who content their lives with mind numbing self entertainment. I think I owe it to the world to do something more. I think everyone does really. There's so much to do. I don't know the last time I read a book. That's a pretty sad thought isn't it? The fact that there are compelling ideas floating out there that I haven't heard yet makes me excited to be alive and want to, for the time being, keep it that way. There's so much life. You know I don't think I've been to 1/5 of our country's states. I want to get out there. There's so much music that any of us has yet to listen to. These are the kinds of ideas that get me rather pumped. I got a couple of books for Christmas. One's a book of Presidents and another one's a "true story" kind of history book. I don't consider myself a genius even though some do and trust me, I'm not by any stretch, but the fact that I have this kind of knowledge at my fingertips is just cool. And now I kick it down a notch as I slip off the highest rung of the idealism ladder into the ground of cold reality. The fact that I have this LJ is a bit of a joke. Why should what I have to say hold any more or less water than anyone else in the world? I'm trying to figure out A) If my thoughts matter and B) Why my thoughts would matter to anyone. I will go on the record saying that I'm incredibly glad that I go to KHS and have met the people I've met and known the people I've known. You're all, here comes the girly part. You've all been a bit of a gift to me in the respect that most of the time, I'm glad I am where I am now and I like my life. I like you people and...thank you for that. My quote of the entry is the first quote I ever did but I use it again here because it's the best quote for a new year. It says so many things and it just works. "What's next?"