"Those stories would make me like you"

It occurs to me now that I never regarded "Long Walk Home" as a actual song. I always just thought of in the most natural way in the world; it's what happens in the story. It takes me to the edge of the scene and compels me to ask one the best questions in the world: what's next? Too often I feel like I don't know what my life is but I know what it is. I can view the timeline of a life in terms of negative space. Well that's not so cute, that's not so funny. There's hundreds of people out there and there's a few more words than that. There's crazy opportunity around seven different corners that I haven't even turned. Imagine my shock when I actually DO. My friend jet-set his handsome self from Texas to Florida to watch a guy play a show. My work here is NOT done, not even close, but this is as great a start as any. Tonight I'm the father at the little league game and my champ just hit a double. I like wanting new things. I like wanting different things. I'm the last person you need to inform that we cannot, we may not, we should not afford all the things we wish and I will be the first to nod my head in agreement. At this point (certainly at THIS point), it doesn't make a difference to me. I'm near bewitched with the feeling, call it falling in love with falling in love. It is not the result, but the process by which those results are attempted. Chasing the chase, you may say. I feel, I don't know, perversely noble. I shouldn't and I'm not, but I'm gonna feel like that going to bed tonight because I got beat by, you know, God's odds and I am not bitter. I am discouraged and I am deterred, but I carry with me no shred of resentment. I look forward to dating my page August 18, 2008. At night I lay and stare at the ceiling, stare at the sheets, dreaming of something epic. And there is fire in the dream, and in the dream deferred the fire grows stronger, burns brighter from a God who would allow. And the fire carries me to the next day and the day after that, and the day after that, and the day after that.. My heart is full of faith and friends and family and....well, maybe you. We'll see what happens next.